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saddest living girl in my bed.
ummm.... yeah.
at a loss. i just want to exist on paper. if i was kanye i wonder how i would make this out in words. but i'm me... and all i can do is make myself feel better or put everyone at ease. i want to live without lies and i want to never make mistakes. i can't believe i'm not hurting everyone and at the same time i can't believe my actions are of any concern of anyone but myself. i want the ability to stop when it feels wrong. i want the ability to shut my mouth when i'm drunk. i want the ability to go back in tiiiiime. i just want to put everything back where it was and not disturb it ever again. i love my mother, i care about people that i've been hurting. i don't think anyone cares. i want to be less selfish, but i want to be happy. why can't i find a place in the middle. RAP MUSIC VOIDS MORALS. i don't even know. i just. don't. know. nothing feels good. i'm 14 years old. if this proves anything, its that i'm mentally unstable/retarded.
12:36 am - December 18, 2010
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