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oh no.
down is a word to describe how my feelings are feeling. the thing that brings me up in any if not all situations is the prospect of free books in the mail. i make myself feel down i guess. i don't know..i guess its easy to bring you're mind to the worst place when its the first place it goes. i am very bad at coming up with logical reasons for any behaviour that surprises or hurts me. i am very outlandish in my private accusations. which is probably why i try not to ever mention it. not seeing my mother as often is making me lonely for someone who tries to understand. i am going to die when i am alone.
4:11 pm - June 29, 2009
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