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it gets colder, arms and shoulders.
i brushed my teeth of him. now i need to shower in scalding water and wash everything away. that isn't you. everything that isn't you. i know you need space and time and so i put some other horrible body between us and i regret it. there are so few things in my life i regret and this is the biggest and most hurtful. i shouldn't assume it would hurt you, but i hope it wouldn't because: there was no meaning. there was no enjoyment. i laid there and i wished it was you. i imagined it was you. i cried because it wasn't you. i thought for some crazy reason i would feel better, i would feel desirable. but if it isn't you who desires me i really don't give a fuck.
7:46 pm - March 22, 2010
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